Gah!

Ya know how you can kinda have a crush on someone and its fine because they don't know and also no one else really knows because you don't talk about it with anyone and maybe that someone might be really hot to you but isn't the top pick of the year by the tastes of most people you'd say it to but its your crush and so it doesn't really matter what they feel on the subject but still you feel it best just to not mention it cause also you don't really have a decent reason for liking them other than that you just do and can't really explain it but ya get that "aww shucks" sort of embarassed and slightly shy feeling near them and can't really make sense of why you act dumb like that but are not hugely that concerned about it because they don't know and neither does anyone else so really its just your own private little experience?

Ok so then what happens if all of a sudden that someone starts paying attention to you and you're like "whoa where'd that come from" and you're not quite sure if maybe you are just imagining it or reading too far into it because you at some point thought "hey if you liked me that would be cool" but didn't really think there was a possibility of that ok maybe a tiny part of you would be theorhetically hoping that but you'd never admit it to yourself cause thats just kinda sad and even though you're pretty sure its nothing you can't completely rule out the slight possibility that maybe its something or at least the tiny inklings of something and who in their right mind would snuff that out ya know?

Then of course you're worried slightly that you might be crazy or obvious or that you might just kill the potential because you acted really ridiculous about it instead of just being cool but how in the world are you supposed to know what to do if you don't even know what is going on and even though its a little scary you feel like you should at least try to find out if maybe they are a little into you I mean that makes sense right? Doesn't it?

Gah!